Rapids

Does it seem as though
thoughts are chasing to influence
external behavior?

I’ve just woken up___
& it feels like, upon my body’s rise
w/ blood beginning to pump
& synapses firing up,
I’m processing thousands of thoughts

all at once, in layers,
& the experience comes on like
an attack, at first, &
what happens next is up to
me___ to a certain degree, because I
can either turn & face this intense rush
or___ I can just___
let it drive me crazy.