Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Personal dust
My attempt at
long term memory,
is standing on tip toes
& stretching so far
to reach,
it actually hurts,
only to find
the high shelf
empty
of all but dust,
just to make sure tho,
a step stool is gotten
in order to see
that dust
personally,
because
there must be
a
trap door
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
Wednesday, November 9, 2016
Saturday, November 5, 2016
Is it all in place?
Worrying about
lights,
windows,
keys & locks
stressing thru
florescent lights,
counting
how much change
I’ve got,
whether ten cents
more for
organic bananas
will make
or break
a less than ideal
grocery list
trying
not to listen
as the pain gnawing
the bottom
of my guts away
screams
to the top
of my lungs
to say
it will never
stop
keeping track to
remember lights,
windows,
keys & locks
stressing thru
florescent lights,
counting
how much change
I’ve got,
whether ten cents
more for
organic bananas
will make
or break
a less than ideal
grocery list
trying
not to listen
as the pain gnawing
the bottom
of my guts away
screams
to the top
of my lungs
to say
it will never
stop
keeping track to
if
the floor
got swept today,
how many dishes
are left in the sink,
is it recycling day
or trash day,
did the mail get
brought in
& how about
the grit
in
the microwave
& the polish
on
the black stove
even tho
no matter
how clean they’re
kept
one day they’ll
burn out
either way.
Thursday, November 3, 2016
A compliment, even
Surrounded
by night
&
the shine
of false bright
from the beam
of headlights
as I trod the sidewalk
back home,
I heard calls broken
from w/in
windows
to guise identity,
unless I paused
to peer inside,
but
on coming
&
on looking
received
no response,
as if an invisible barrier
stood between
my feet
&
their confusion
like it’s a requirement
to react
when they slow down
just
to yell
out of a window.
by night
&
the shine
of false bright
from the beam
of headlights
as I trod the sidewalk
back home,
I heard calls broken
from w/in
windows
to guise identity,
unless I paused
to peer inside,
but
on coming
&
on looking
received
no response,
as if an invisible barrier
stood between
my feet
&
their confusion
like it’s a requirement
to react
when they slow down
just
to yell
out of a window.
Wednesday, November 2, 2016
Friday, October 28, 2016
Thursday, October 27, 2016
Something like silence
What is heard
right before the crack
of an acorn falling, & just
as the wind touches the leaves
in the trees, it assists
approaching twilight as the stars
seek to reach the sky,
it's tucked in w/ the dust bunnies
underneath your bed,
to call in dreams & say
what needs to be said.
right before the crack
of an acorn falling, & just
as the wind touches the leaves
in the trees, it assists
approaching twilight as the stars
seek to reach the sky,
it's tucked in w/ the dust bunnies
underneath your bed,
to call in dreams & say
what needs to be said.
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
Cross-piece
Wounds of
such depth & frequency
they function as
rungs,
to support smiles that last
forever.
such depth & frequency
they function as
rungs,
to support smiles that last
forever.
Monday, October 24, 2016
Our mother is mad
Humanity hurts, maybe
that's why they're so ignorant;
from the jump, just after
the long drop from the womb, they are
struck w/ the set malady
of suffering
w/ no clue how;
madness takes hold at an early age,
yet the popular populous is determined
to deny the fact
while accusing those able
to embrace certain degrees of being
mad in the act;
spoon feeding kids corrupt ideals
of what life should be
as human, as consumer & as breeder
perpetuating sugar-coated
misery___
since no one taught them
how
to make humanity hurt any less,
as a constant
reality.
that's why they're so ignorant;
from the jump, just after
the long drop from the womb, they are
struck w/ the set malady
of suffering
w/ no clue how;
madness takes hold at an early age,
yet the popular populous is determined
to deny the fact
while accusing those able
to embrace certain degrees of being
mad in the act;
spoon feeding kids corrupt ideals
of what life should be
as human, as consumer & as breeder
perpetuating sugar-coated
misery___
since no one taught them
how
to make humanity hurt any less,
as a constant
reality.
A warped foundation
A sought after
ideal
of what happiness
means, based
off of
material means,
won't solve
anything.
ideal
of what happiness
means, based
off of
material means,
won't solve
anything.
Sunday, October 23, 2016
Tension w/out exact detail
Pressure from
so many angles
the causes are a blur,
landscapes of pain that could
never
be painted by number,
patterns w/ building translations
that tend to lend to not
wondering
so much since
the lot be generalities, assisted
by confusion so sharp
the impact is nearly
unnoticeable.
so many angles
the causes are a blur,
landscapes of pain that could
never
be painted by number,
patterns w/ building translations
that tend to lend to not
wondering
so much since
the lot be generalities, assisted
by confusion so sharp
the impact is nearly
unnoticeable.
The perfect sacrifice
When something
you love
tears your life apart
due to love,
that's when you know
it's true love.
you love
tears your life apart
due to love,
that's when you know
it's true love.
Friday, October 14, 2016
Never left be
Does not matter
how deep I dig the hole, even if
able to escape humanity___
the worms will then
begin to gnaw
at me.
how deep I dig the hole, even if
able to escape humanity___
the worms will then
begin to gnaw
at me.
Saturday, October 8, 2016
Form fit
Being normal according
to other's expectations
is like finding a pair
of pants that
will
always
fit perfectly___
it's just not gonna happen.
to other's expectations
is like finding a pair
of pants that
will
always
fit perfectly___
it's just not gonna happen.
Friday, October 7, 2016
Subject of humanity
Faith
in historians is
no more than blind,
since those that
walk the path
are not
so certain
in each
act.
in historians is
no more than blind,
since those that
walk the path
are not
so certain
in each
act.
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Monday, September 12, 2016
Live it UP
Considering
the
No Down Payment
act
& the growing paranoia
to hoard
& protect what
cannot
be kept___,
we should fully admit
there is
a war on___,
even if it is against
ourselves.
the
No Down Payment
act
& the growing paranoia
to hoard
& protect what
cannot
be kept___,
we should fully admit
there is
a war on___,
even if it is against
ourselves.
Sunday, September 11, 2016
Knives & hot plates
About a week
before
the head chef went
missing
on a month drinking bender,
I had to keep calm
& hold the operation up;
he had taken to antagonizing
our dishwasher
by throwing hot plates,
skillets right off the eye
& even a few
freshly sharpened
knives___
assisting hangovers
they gained together
in nights before rushes
we all should have expected;
yet___
each ticket
was still met on time
as he screamed
until
the dishwasher
cried:
I QUIT!!!
before
the head chef went
missing
on a month drinking bender,
I had to keep calm
& hold the operation up;
he had taken to antagonizing
our dishwasher
by throwing hot plates,
skillets right off the eye
& even a few
freshly sharpened
knives___
assisting hangovers
they gained together
in nights before rushes
we all should have expected;
yet___
each ticket
was still met on time
as he screamed
until
the dishwasher
cried:
I QUIT!!!
Saturday, September 10, 2016
'This will make it easier'
& I smirked to the side, slightly
since, nothing gets easier; components
just shift in the overall scheme
building up to what will be.
since, nothing gets easier; components
just shift in the overall scheme
building up to what will be.
Looking past Paradise
Wondering what the one
albino kid, born thru the
fabric into Hotel Heaven
to be claimed as the only
living proof that god
will save them,
is feeling
as he looks out across
the clean field
he's always dreamed of
the other side
of___.
albino kid, born thru the
fabric into Hotel Heaven
to be claimed as the only
living proof that god
will save them,
is feeling
as he looks out across
the clean field
he's always dreamed of
the other side
of___.
Today & tomorrow
What we call protection
is a money game.
Capitalize on war today!
It's all we've got left anyway.
We closed all other roads
& put up barriers
everywhere
w/ everyone left scared,
yet half pretending
that there's more than
butterflies
remaining to smile after,
& even those may be
gone tomorrow.
is a money game.
Capitalize on war today!
It's all we've got left anyway.
We closed all other roads
& put up barriers
everywhere
w/ everyone left scared,
yet half pretending
that there's more than
butterflies
remaining to smile after,
& even those may be
gone tomorrow.
Human nature
Tapped, desolate
& perceived as crazy,
that's what the end looks like
for the lot of humanity.
& perceived as crazy,
that's what the end looks like
for the lot of humanity.
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
Deal
Having returned
to town to retrieve
what was undoubtedly
a last paycheck,
two managers classically
asked me to sit down w/ them,
but a few words in
I couldn't help shrug & interrupt:
'Look, it's cool. You're both new at
doing someone else's dirty work,
but I'm not. So let's stop
wasting each others' time. Just give me
that check in your hand & you can
stop stuttering. I will walk out
that door calmly & never come back.
So we can all breathe. Deal?'
to town to retrieve
what was undoubtedly
a last paycheck,
two managers classically
asked me to sit down w/ them,
but a few words in
I couldn't help shrug & interrupt:
'Look, it's cool. You're both new at
doing someone else's dirty work,
but I'm not. So let's stop
wasting each others' time. Just give me
that check in your hand & you can
stop stuttering. I will walk out
that door calmly & never come back.
So we can all breathe. Deal?'
Calm reiteration
A flatline
is the best way
to perceive,
since
chaos seems
to consume
a bit
more___
than everything.
is the best way
to perceive,
since
chaos seems
to consume
a bit
more___
than everything.
No sense nonsense
When each day
is only a lingering
after-taste, because
initial impact
barely even takes.
is only a lingering
after-taste, because
initial impact
barely even takes.
Tuesday, August 30, 2016
Don't just walk
Wasn't until
pain began to take
hold of body, that
I thought to dance
atop it all___
w/ glee.
pain began to take
hold of body, that
I thought to dance
atop it all___
w/ glee.
Truth (for moral)
Spent most
of my life petrified, &
it wasn't until I started
to die that I realized
what it is to be
alive.
of my life petrified, &
it wasn't until I started
to die that I realized
what it is to be
alive.
Saturday, August 27, 2016
Thursday, August 25, 2016
The price
Nothing in this life
comes gratis, cuz
everything you've got
you gotta work for,
& once you've got it,
you've gotta
maintain the right
to keep it.
comes gratis, cuz
everything you've got
you gotta work for,
& once you've got it,
you've gotta
maintain the right
to keep it.
Monday, August 22, 2016
Around the sun
When the summer
heat wave
finally breaks
into fall, the earth
smells like
the body that
rots.
heat wave
finally breaks
into fall, the earth
smells like
the body that
rots.
Thursday, August 11, 2016
At final rest
Death
comes knocking,
the clock stops ticking
& then___
comes the final relief.
R.I.P. Dr. Larry Keithley
comes knocking,
the clock stops ticking
& then___
comes the final relief.
R.I.P. Dr. Larry Keithley
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
What's in frame
You know
that to survive,
it must be still framed in
the mind, that all
& everything
will be
just___ fine.
that to survive,
it must be still framed in
the mind, that all
& everything
will be
just___ fine.
What moves on its own, but is only seen still
At
104 degrees, under
a solid blue Texas sky, she
emitted the sound of a tremble
into the phone & exclaimed,
"Holy shit, when you said that
chills went up my arms!"
after I gave out the events
leading up to my
31st birthday.
104 degrees, under
a solid blue Texas sky, she
emitted the sound of a tremble
into the phone & exclaimed,
"Holy shit, when you said that
chills went up my arms!"
after I gave out the events
leading up to my
31st birthday.
The 'attachments'
'Sometimes
I go crazy wondering
what you are thinking.
& you know___
even if you give all
the right answers
I still know
you are somewhere else.
& I'm starting to wonder if you
just can't help it, like there is
a whole other world you are in
that I can't see.
When I'm w/ you, it's like being an
attachment to something else, &
not a part of the whole.'
Usually, there's no way to directly convey
what I'm thinking. Even if I have the words___
they aren't understood when said.
& not a single one of them took to comprehending
my feelings on not being able to
not be somewhere else.
I go crazy wondering
what you are thinking.
& you know___
even if you give all
the right answers
I still know
you are somewhere else.
& I'm starting to wonder if you
just can't help it, like there is
a whole other world you are in
that I can't see.
When I'm w/ you, it's like being an
attachment to something else, &
not a part of the whole.'
Usually, there's no way to directly convey
what I'm thinking. Even if I have the words___
they aren't understood when said.
& not a single one of them took to comprehending
my feelings on not being able to
not be somewhere else.
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
Stunned still
Stepping out the door,
immediately I came face
to face w/ a hummingbird,
fluttering at a standstill
& myself rather
stunned___
we simply stared
at
one another___
& after an unmeasurable span
of time it carried on
as if in slow motion, while
backlit by the sun
it transformed into a silhouette
that included the speed
of its wings
in side traveling,
&
I am still___
completely stunned.
immediately I came face
to face w/ a hummingbird,
fluttering at a standstill
& myself rather
stunned___
we simply stared
at
one another___
& after an unmeasurable span
of time it carried on
as if in slow motion, while
backlit by the sun
it transformed into a silhouette
that included the speed
of its wings
in side traveling,
&
I am still___
completely stunned.
Tuesday, July 26, 2016
Years ago
An old friend, tho
her juvenile tendencies
weren't my thing, went thru
the trouble to see me;
right before leaving the house
she walked out of the bathroom
& exclaimed about its cleanliness,
I casually shrugged & said:
"We're nearly 30.
Isn't it already time to start
acting our age?"___
to which she
replied that she lived w/
two guys & another female, all
of whom she was sleeping w/,
& later (over lunch)
calmly listed out
her STDs___
while I thought:
perhaps
you should
clean
your bathroom,
even tho I know
those weren't caught
from the toilet
seat.
her juvenile tendencies
weren't my thing, went thru
the trouble to see me;
right before leaving the house
she walked out of the bathroom
& exclaimed about its cleanliness,
I casually shrugged & said:
"We're nearly 30.
Isn't it already time to start
acting our age?"___
to which she
replied that she lived w/
two guys & another female, all
of whom she was sleeping w/,
& later (over lunch)
calmly listed out
her STDs___
while I thought:
perhaps
you should
clean
your bathroom,
even tho I know
those weren't caught
from the toilet
seat.
Are the 'sinners' doing right?
What if the law
is the false Christ
we were taught not to worship
in church as we grew to
view ourselves as
adults?
is the false Christ
we were taught not to worship
in church as we grew to
view ourselves as
adults?
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
All day, every day
You can look
at the clock, just
to estimate
what is happening
in a day, but it
doesn't matter what
time it is___
you've still gotta wait.
(7/9/16)
at the clock, just
to estimate
what is happening
in a day, but it
doesn't matter what
time it is___
you've still gotta wait.
(7/9/16)
Monday, July 11, 2016
Popping cognitive bubbles
An encompassing plateau
in each___
a riddle of perspectives developed
from what has been reduced
to the power of memory, branched off of
a perpetual will___
that generates the bubble
itself.
in each___
a riddle of perspectives developed
from what has been reduced
to the power of memory, branched off of
a perpetual will___
that generates the bubble
itself.
Two hour nights
Focus took shift
to hook itself
at the bottom most point
in the belly of
a gulch,
carved by a lifetime's experience,
in order
to subdue the day-mares___
&
I'm ready
to wake up
now.
to hook itself
at the bottom most point
in the belly of
a gulch,
carved by a lifetime's experience,
in order
to subdue the day-mares___
&
I'm ready
to wake up
now.
Sunday, July 10, 2016
Go figure
All we do is done
w/ significance, whether
or not aware of each
act, I've seen the proofs___
yet, no fail, feeling
useless & empty
will happen
anyways.
(7/6/16)
w/ significance, whether
or not aware of each
act, I've seen the proofs___
yet, no fail, feeling
useless & empty
will happen
anyways.
(7/6/16)
Saturday, July 2, 2016
Focus & fear
Coping
w/ near death
in enigmatic illness
didn't leave room
for fighting
& hysterics, only reason
paired w/ what calm
could be gathered,
not to mention
one must grow out of such things
to keep focus on the vitals,
but I was surprised
when the threat of a gun
aimed at my head
turned into a moment
in which I didn't feel afraid___
& that is what truly
scared me.
w/ near death
in enigmatic illness
didn't leave room
for fighting
& hysterics, only reason
paired w/ what calm
could be gathered,
not to mention
one must grow out of such things
to keep focus on the vitals,
but I was surprised
when the threat of a gun
aimed at my head
turned into a moment
in which I didn't feel afraid___
& that is what truly
scared me.
Friday, July 1, 2016
Thursday, June 30, 2016
Friday, June 24, 2016
Something different
Leaving mystery
as it is, ___it's
just another wild bird
w/ varying forms
of plumage
nothing wrong
w/ that
just because we don't understand
something___
doesn't automatically
make it bad.
as it is, ___it's
just another wild bird
w/ varying forms
of plumage
nothing wrong
w/ that
just because we don't understand
something___
doesn't automatically
make it bad.
Three-dimensional perspective
When there really
is
no time frame
to truly
comprehend,
how potent
is
the trauma of one
lifetime
or
all of them
combine,
&
would that potency
change
if we grew
to see
all of what
we consider to be
time?
is
no time frame
to truly
comprehend,
how potent
is
the trauma of one
lifetime
or
all of them
combine,
&
would that potency
change
if we grew
to see
all of what
we consider to be
time?
Sunday, June 5, 2016
For the love of
Mushrooms growing
in the field of distant skies, a
forerunning of raze
marking the path
of man’s ingenuity, fear & greed;
reaching beyond the roots
of beginning origins___
where going
too high
leads to brittle limbs
& then, the vulnerable heart,
since we can only
go
so far
as breeds___,
instead of as a race.
(5/11/16)
in the field of distant skies, a
forerunning of raze
marking the path
of man’s ingenuity, fear & greed;
reaching beyond the roots
of beginning origins___
where going
too high
leads to brittle limbs
& then, the vulnerable heart,
since we can only
go
so far
as breeds___,
instead of as a race.
(5/11/16)
Tuesday, May 31, 2016
Thru pain
Living in the flesh
isn't the same
anymore___
I'm not so solid, instead
my body is only
patches of fabric___
that the air may
breathe thru.
isn't the same
anymore___
I'm not so solid, instead
my body is only
patches of fabric___
that the air may
breathe thru.
Sunday, May 29, 2016
Double fold
I am
flawed the fuck up,
& trying not to
dwell in the act of improving
is sometimes infuriating___
especially when all is a
stagnant deterioration seeming
to constantly perch on the
brim of bursting___
& the long lasting drain
of agony eating me alive, so
I stay alive.
As long as any anger
is not directed at others, I can
accept the amount for now
if necessary___
& for that matter I can
accept the flaws
too.
(5/29/16)
flawed the fuck up,
& trying not to
dwell in the act of improving
is sometimes infuriating___
especially when all is a
stagnant deterioration seeming
to constantly perch on the
brim of bursting___
& the long lasting drain
of agony eating me alive, so
I stay alive.
As long as any anger
is not directed at others, I can
accept the amount for now
if necessary___
& for that matter I can
accept the flaws
too.
(5/29/16)
Monday, May 23, 2016
A reminder
Today in the sun
a dragonfly landed
on my shoulder,
w/ full grip & wings
it felt like a hand
that reached out
for a moment.
a dragonfly landed
on my shoulder,
w/ full grip & wings
it felt like a hand
that reached out
for a moment.
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Already at it
There's no bail
on a life sentence___,
you either do your time,
or keep reliving it
to the nines.
on a life sentence___,
you either do your time,
or keep reliving it
to the nines.
Saturday, May 21, 2016
It tickles
Variables of life have purpose
just as their movements do too, so
over time these patterns come to
your attention that are
unavoidable since you live them
to the point of most being
rather predictable
to whatever extent, but some act as
life lines___
& you can't help the fact that you
enjoy that energy flow.
just as their movements do too, so
over time these patterns come to
your attention that are
unavoidable since you live them
to the point of most being
rather predictable
to whatever extent, but some act as
life lines___
& you can't help the fact that you
enjoy that energy flow.
Friday, May 20, 2016
Experience w/ numbers
Lucky numbers___
something some think to have,
& if I were to claim one
mine would have to be
13, since it's always been good to me
in strange ways,
but
at the same time___
I don't exactly believe in luck.
(5/20/16 still working, doesn't feel finished)
something some think to have,
& if I were to claim one
mine would have to be
13, since it's always been good to me
in strange ways,
but
at the same time___
I don't exactly believe in luck.
(5/20/16 still working, doesn't feel finished)
Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Shine thru the iris
What truly makes
a smile, remains imprinted
in the eyes___, even if
not constantly kept
on the lips
that smile___
will last tho,
no matter where it is kept
after___
initial impact.
a smile, remains imprinted
in the eyes___, even if
not constantly kept
on the lips
that smile___
will last tho,
no matter where it is kept
after___
initial impact.
Monday, May 9, 2016
Can't get past the bombs, yet
Sitting still
w/ plenty full focus___
that can remain steady thru internal
noise meeting the external shock reaction, but
the sound of a bomb detonating
miles away___
gets me every time.
w/ plenty full focus___
that can remain steady thru internal
noise meeting the external shock reaction, but
the sound of a bomb detonating
miles away___
gets me every time.
Monday, May 2, 2016
Stick to what you know
Don't forget
the experience___
gained over a lifetime,
can't let one's self
slip back into old patterns
that were eliminated___
due to growth past
the mindset it took to exist,
so experiencing it again___
feels like sandpaper to the mind,
because it only occurs in
moments that feel like missteps,
since thru experience
we change___
in a way that sticks, so we
don't
step backwards.
(4/28/16 still want to keep editing)
the experience___
gained over a lifetime,
can't let one's self
slip back into old patterns
that were eliminated___
due to growth past
the mindset it took to exist,
so experiencing it again___
feels like sandpaper to the mind,
because it only occurs in
moments that feel like missteps,
since thru experience
we change___
in a way that sticks, so we
don't
step backwards.
(4/28/16 still want to keep editing)
Sunday, May 1, 2016
Just as the all
I
can
take
a bad
joke, but
know that
some day you
automatically pay
for your
actions___,
just as we all
do.
(4/14/16)
can
take
a bad
joke, but
know that
some day you
automatically pay
for your
actions___,
just as we all
do.
(4/14/16)
Wool lined skull
Expressing what
you want
& don't want___
seems useless if others
ears are plugged w/ wool
& eyes are clouded
from the inside,
so they can
believe___
whatever they want.
(4/24/16)
you want
& don't want___
seems useless if others
ears are plugged w/ wool
& eyes are clouded
from the inside,
so they can
believe___
whatever they want.
(4/24/16)
Friday, April 29, 2016
Accepting this
Pain lives thru
my body___
& that means___
I don't
live in pain, & I
never did.
(4/26/16)
:By now I get that this is true, but
it feels very strange to say.
my body___
& that means___
I don't
live in pain, & I
never did.
(4/26/16)
:By now I get that this is true, but
it feels very strange to say.
Monday, April 25, 2016
Can't keep pretending
How many times
did death caress
our lives
as children, & went
unnoticed___,
so we could keep
playing
make-believe?
did death caress
our lives
as children, & went
unnoticed___,
so we could keep
playing
make-believe?
That touch of___
Being punched back
into poetry is better, because
the boundaries are not
limits___,
besides___,
touching the untouchable
is good for the soul.
into poetry is better, because
the boundaries are not
limits___,
besides___,
touching the untouchable
is good for the soul.
Thursday, April 21, 2016
Yielding for stubborn determination
Admitting
that this is as good
as it gets
for now___ is
hopefully advantageous
to a wait-&-see
optimism pushing mentality
that exists, because
what waits in the alternative is___
a wasted life
I won't
bother imagining.
(4/1/16)
that this is as good
as it gets
for now___ is
hopefully advantageous
to a wait-&-see
optimism pushing mentality
that exists, because
what waits in the alternative is___
a wasted life
I won't
bother imagining.
(4/1/16)
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
What rough edges?
Sharp mannered, but not
w/ ill will___
smooth when appropriate, & sweet
when summoned___
not many seem to get it tho.
(3/28/16)
w/ ill will___
smooth when appropriate, & sweet
when summoned___
not many seem to get it tho.
(3/28/16)
Friday, April 15, 2016
So
Tip toes bleeding
soz to balance on the edge
of a razor blade, of a
special brand
called:
Live Anyway.
(3/31/16)
soz to balance on the edge
of a razor blade, of a
special brand
called:
Live Anyway.
(3/31/16)
Sunday, April 3, 2016
Saturday, April 2, 2016
Friday, April 1, 2016
Even if prepared, it comes down to luck & a prayer
Can't waste it
asking how life
got this way,
it's already painful
enough
as is
even as a child
I expected it would suck,
so maybe my life
wouldn't be
such a let down, but there was
no way to quite picture it,
& there's no way
I could've expected this shit
& be grateful no less, as
it could be
so much
worse
let's just pray
I did something right, cuz
one good deed may later
save my skin, barely___, since
it's happened more
than once
before
3/27/16
asking how life
got this way,
it's already painful
enough
as is
even as a child
I expected it would suck,
so maybe my life
wouldn't be
such a let down, but there was
no way to quite picture it,
& there's no way
I could've expected this shit
& be grateful no less, as
it could be
so much
worse
let's just pray
I did something right, cuz
one good deed may later
save my skin, barely___, since
it's happened more
than once
before
3/27/16
Saturday, March 26, 2016
Letter to the spirit
Building a wall
of words,
wrapping truth in___
riddles,
as a diplomatic defense
to protect one self
& the other___,
still
it's a
double bind
that stops & winds up
mind & energy___,
if you step forward w/out
hearing or absorbing
those words, the
wall will grow
taller___
& your results
may bring tears to
the eyes
but, too, more wisdom
unfolds___
in heart & mind.
of words,
wrapping truth in___
riddles,
as a diplomatic defense
to protect one self
& the other___,
still
it's a
double bind
that stops & winds up
mind & energy___,
if you step forward w/out
hearing or absorbing
those words, the
wall will grow
taller___
& your results
may bring tears to
the eyes
but, too, more wisdom
unfolds___
in heart & mind.
Thursday, March 24, 2016
Deceptive innocence
Never knowing for
certain
if they will be able to
maintain
self-control & understanding
& not convince them self the two
of you are destined to___
when
the truth___
has been present
since meeting.
(3/22/16)
certain
if they will be able to
maintain
self-control & understanding
& not convince them self the two
of you are destined to___
when
the truth___
has been present
since meeting.
(3/22/16)
The boot nail
Being treated like a heel___,
as if I have no soul
of my own___,
helps keep my chin up.
(2/19/16)
as if I have no soul
of my own___,
helps keep my chin up.
(2/19/16)
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
No on
Hoisting me up
on a pedestal I have
no interest in, &
treating me as if I have
no rights,
won't get you your
ideal.
(If a woman says no & has to repeat that she means NO, then she is not your ideal.)
on a pedestal I have
no interest in, &
treating me as if I have
no rights,
won't get you your
ideal.
(If a woman says no & has to repeat that she means NO, then she is not your ideal.)
Sunday, March 20, 2016
Bearing behind a bare tooth smile
Reality is too long-winded,
w/ its abrasive monotony dragging
thru like an eternal nightmare
where all bad cuts
close
if not hitting
actuality,
truth takes emotional torture to gain
& we still find a way to smile
___ usually.
3/12/16
w/ its abrasive monotony dragging
thru like an eternal nightmare
where all bad cuts
close
if not hitting
actuality,
truth takes emotional torture to gain
& we still find a way to smile
___ usually.
3/12/16
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
Thursday, February 25, 2016
A wish is (continuation for Alles)
So many eyelashes
blown into
nothing
&
so many shooting stars
blaze to a
fade
never has fate
felt so close
yet
never has the horizon
felt so far,
while
nie
aparting
as a wish is where
the truth
awaits.
blown into
nothing
&
so many shooting stars
blaze to a
fade
never has fate
felt so close
yet
never has the horizon
felt so far,
while
nie
aparting
as a wish is where
the truth
awaits.
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
Friday, February 19, 2016
Thursday, February 4, 2016
Tuesday, February 2, 2016
For each our benefit
Traveled near to TN to
see my grandmother today,
after a stronger hug than usual___
she placed the Venus mound
of her left hand to my forehead
& smiled while pretending
to actually rub away worry lines___
from my face,
& I smiled while pretending
it worked.
(1/31/16)
see my grandmother today,
after a stronger hug than usual___
she placed the Venus mound
of her left hand to my forehead
& smiled while pretending
to actually rub away worry lines___
from my face,
& I smiled while pretending
it worked.
(1/31/16)
Thursday, January 28, 2016
Ma
Apple rhyme
funny fish hooks
emotional weather forecasts,
& Henry.
(Written while having a blast w/ my friends.)
funny fish hooks
emotional weather forecasts,
& Henry.
(Written while having a blast w/ my friends.)
Saturday, January 23, 2016
Thursday, January 21, 2016
Don't worry, the joke 's on me
Slamming palms to his head
& looking away,
he balked,
"Why do you always talk in riddles!?"
I looked away too,
thinking: shit, I'm screwed.
Eventually tho, I adjusted
to others generally not
being able to relate
to me, & learning how to be
present
while at a distance
anyway.
(What age 22 taught me)
& looking away,
he balked,
"Why do you always talk in riddles!?"
I looked away too,
thinking: shit, I'm screwed.
Eventually tho, I adjusted
to others generally not
being able to relate
to me, & learning how to be
present
while at a distance
anyway.
(What age 22 taught me)
Wednesday, January 20, 2016
Poetry kills (a cliche)
Each word a
bullet___
& verse an entry
wound___,
every interpretation is
another angle
off which
to ricochet internally,
&
if lucky___
when the point finally
hits___
you'll survive.
bullet___
& verse an entry
wound___,
every interpretation is
another angle
off which
to ricochet internally,
&
if lucky___
when the point finally
hits___
you'll survive.
Monday, January 18, 2016
Focus, for the real
Tired of looking through these eyes,
peeling back the lids feels
bone dry
only damp in the corners where
no one else can see, as
I continue to dance
to think that
I'm free
before these lids close again
I'd like to believe I
saw the
raw
&
real
so this life can be
vindicated.
peeling back the lids feels
bone dry
only damp in the corners where
no one else can see, as
I continue to dance
to think that
I'm free
before these lids close again
I'd like to believe I
saw the
raw
&
real
so this life can be
vindicated.
Tuesday, January 12, 2016
Saturday, January 9, 2016
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