Even if prepared, it comes down to luck & a prayer

Can't waste it
asking how life
got this way,
it's already painful
enough
as is

even as a child
I expected it would suck,
so maybe my life
wouldn't be
such a let down, but there was
no way to quite picture it,
& there's no way
I could've expected this shit
& be grateful no less, as
it could be
so much
worse

let's just pray
I did something right, cuz
one good deed may later
save my skin, barely___, since
it's happened more
than once
before

3/27/16