Bare essentials

Others
may try
to drape
labels on me
when I’m out

but
when I’m home
alone
I like to walk around
nude

The new Fen-Phen

‘Girl___
what did you take
to end up
looking like THAT?
Hook me up
w/ your secret!’

Oh___
what you’re looking for
is illness & poverty
so intense
it ruins your life
physically

to the point
of being drug inches up
to your own death,
just praying
you’re lucky enough
to survive,
w/ something
resembling
sanity

Of everything

I try
to write
&
my mind drops
into
the cheeks of my face
&
forgets its place
w/in
the grandiose
scheme

W/ it

An extensive apology
doesn’t mean shit
if there’s no
appropriate action
to fit

Alabama

Here
friends are lost
due to the gain
of the
imaginary friend
named:
methamphetamine

Salvation

Well, we can
hope & pray, but
that doesn’t mean
it will happen today

There's no escaping

Since I have
finally been introduced
to an aid
for the overwhelming
sensations
that pair w/ the pain
of fibromyalgia

I still wear sunglasses
under florescent lighting
to slow the impact
of serious discomfort

& it still found
a way to run me down
thru a piercing pain
in the bone of my skull

from a head injury
I received
at
the age of 8

Time said NO

If you’re
not interested
in listening,
please
don’t bother to ask,
because
I just don’t
want
the lagging nonsense

anymore

the desire
aged
&
died
quite sometime ago,
but
nobody bothered
to pay attention

properly

Another attempt at satisfaction

Hearing the whistle
of a hatchet
splitting thru the air
& cracking into
dense wood

from the handle
set & released
w/ painful
ease

&
the grip
it takes
to
pull
the hatchet back
for yet
another throw

Lush w/ green

The camp fire
died
& all that’s left
is crumbling
sections of
ash
&
a seven
year old boy
shifting
the remnants
w/
a stick
that fell astray
from the
canopy
dancing
above his head

Already in their grave

So you beat
a heard of horses
to death
& buried the lot

what’s left to do
but
dig them up
& repeat the process
all over again

so you don’t harm
anymore
living creatures

Confession to god

I can’t get no peace
&
I can’t get no rest

only thing
I got

is
existential stress

Dirty yellow

Yesterday I beamed
over the first blooming
lily in the garden,
only
to walk out
into the morning sun today
& witness it plucked &
discarded
on the sidewalk

moving it to the grass didn’t help me feel better
about the death of a lily only destined for one day

Against all judgement

Be
defiant

tell the truth

True love

I
see
you
when
you
know

nobody
is
looking

Guess the player couldn't handle the game

While making my way up
the road I noticed
a plastic square
w/ two differently
colored sides
abandoned
on the heated concrete

& no more anywhere else in sight

it encouraged me to think:
a single piece of a
Rubik’s Cube
spells out
frustration
&
spite

On any day

It’s never
too
late
to find
your guts

dig ‘em up

& laugh
about the dumb shit,
& even accept the fuckups
in the meantime

while getting the real
shit
taken care of

Completely

When a lot
of time is spent
w/ me, the other
begins to see
I trust nobody
or anything

Not even the mirrors

My ass
was ridden
every time, because
I never just took
his word

especially when driving

he always checked
for busy or clear
& I would look
anyway

until
eventually
it came down to
realizing
it wasn’t just spite,
since I glanced
even after
using
the side-view
mirror