A change

In the past near 8 years I have endured extreme health issues, details I won't go into___
& I'm determined to get as much of my health back as I can & become financially stable once again.
Needless to say there's always a lot on my mind, but exceptionally so lately. Not to mention
w/in the bundle of my lively hood having been stripped from me & the ability to gain income___
I had to learn to depend on family to survive. W/out, I would be dead, & that is not a stretch in the least.
What I'm getting at is, that in that process, also I ended up not being heard. Not listened to___
I became like a child just along for the ride, because I couldn't do anything else. So why listen to
what I have to say? Today I drew that line. I'm sick of being pushed around & subjected to other's bs.
Hopefully soon I will get proper treatment for my body & be able to return to some type of life
that is not laying awake nights screaming in agony, barely able to eat due to certain health issue etc.
I do not want to be a prisoner to my illness any longer!
As well, to boot___ I'm quitting smoking. While I smoke less than a pack a day & only started at 24
(no doubt due to my struggles)___ next year I turn 30! No more. I can only have the best possible
in mind for my future. My 20s were torn away from me & I nearly died & mostly certainly lost my mind at times. I was forced to the brink of death & chose to crawl back by power of will.
Quitting smoking is just a single piece of straw in the pile. It's easy in comparison to what I've lived through, & I'm thankful to still be alive & have what very little I have.
I have to take care of myself, & I won't take anybody's bullshit anymore.
Life is too valuable a gift.
xoxo

L.