Saturday, February 28, 2015

More to it than meets the eye


Dance monkey dance,
it’s all you’ve got to
save your
ass
when someone
else
has the gun
in
hand,
meanwhile
you like to wonder
whether the wound
---
is worth it.
 



Tuesday, February 24, 2015

We don't see


Columbus didn't discover America
after begging for a ship
in a world of kings & queens,
he just stumbled upon a place he
didn't belong in___
then brought the sheep w/ him___.

Vikings had arrived long before
& the natives bested them
to free their land
again___, but
what the sheep brought was worse
than just a monstrosity, because
it was a holocaust of war
genocide & disease, but___
we don't acknowledge it anymore
like racism & the poor.

We don't acknowledge
the American Holocaust anymore
just like racism & the poor___.

(The original version is longer, but even more ugly___ so it's cut short, just like my blood lines.)

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Why would I lie?


I love
over analyzing.
----
It helps me
cope.


Sunday, February 15, 2015

Tickling Death


I am not afraid of death___

having swayed together
w/ our fingertips
touching, I realized how
he liked to dance the tango
& I was eager to
learn each
step, even through w/
knowing it wasn’t meant to be,___

death taught me
a lot
w/ that dance
& I have applied it___
to how I live
now

I am not afraid of death,
because I know his ticklish spots___.

Tupelo honey w/ a sting





Near by
there’s a place I simply
referred to as: The Board Walk, &
it is indeed___ just that, as it weaves
through marshland, but too it is part of a
nature reserve named:
Wheeler Wildlife Refuge___
& it used to stretch from Madison to Decatur, AL

As a family we would try to walk as far as we could
in a day, but___
over the years tornadoes & lack of funding have
torn to pieces the path which we were able to navigate,
& only two spots now remain, that go for about a mile or so
then stop___
leaving you to stare ahead in wonder

trying to at least remember more than a few  brief splashes
of color in a slice of events long since passed.

[I don’t remember very much of my childhood from brain damage,
& I told myself to look at it as if I’ve gained memory space.
It’s more optimistic than outright saying &/or thinking: oh shit, my grandfather
just died & even though it hurts___ it’s part of how life goes.
He’s in a better place & I’m happy for him, & I will miss him. Still though,
I’m angry___ ever so slightly |or| until I grind my teeth___
that I don’t have more memories of me w/ my grandfather. I can remember
if I keep focusing on the knowledge of the memory then I get more color.
All-in-all I have about a handful, but it’s okay.]

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Share the madness!

L. Worthy's Sondry profile


The above link is to my profile w/ 5 or 6 posts (so far) on sondry.com, which is probably my favorite writer's networking site I've come across. I would like to suggest to my fellow writers to check it out! Get a feel for their deal & perhaps join us in our play :}

Friday, February 6, 2015

Contact juggle dance


I keep forgetting I have a Youtube channel. Reminds me I need to do more contact juggling.

(video too) Coincidence & interest II


When I moved back
from CO, my train stop
was in Memphis, TN___, but
I woke up just before
dawn & we were stopped
45 minutes away
from the train station, &
the crew wouldn’t say
why we couldn’t move yet.

Once reaching the station
there were police
& medics everywhere___;
my family
greeted me w/ hugs, &
my dad asked
what they told us
about the delay___; as it
had turned out, a man had
laid across the tracks
& let the train take
his life away___.

An event I can’t forget___.




(This is my footage leaving CO on way to IL, but not the same train that is mentioned in the poem)

Not much but coincidence & interest


On my 12th birthday
Jeff Buckley died
at age 30___;
May 29th 1997, drown
in Wolf River___ in
Memphis, TN.

He was taking a dip
of spontaneity___,
while waiting on his
band to arrive
from NY.

I wonder what I
will be doing on that
day this year, as I
turn 30___.

Maybe___
I’ll go to Memphis___,
just because.



Thursday, February 5, 2015

Get this strangeness


Acupuncture is
the new treatment,
& my first appointment
is on___:
Valentine’s Day___.

(Chinese herbs & pastoral counseling___.)

*

“Chaos is the score upon which reality is written.”

- Henry Valentine Miller

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Three or more


Curious thoughts while optimistic

Employing passive aggression
is a deal breaker for me___,
but what if multiple
people are influencing &
the subconscious
may be
involved?

*

Even if it stumbles upon you

Victory will forever be
bitter sweet___

I despise the word: kismet

& competition
makes no sense to me,
but yet
you find yourself
working to
seek more out
of life.

*

M
oving day for the mind


The surprise of it
is change happens
& it’s never known what
exactly comes next,
& the best option
is to make the
most of it, for your own
good___.

I don’t know anymore


Every day pacing
up & down the walls
in between working on
anything___, but
I’ve stopped reaching for
the stars___,
for my own reasons.

My pain is the child
it seems I will always
carry, & my work
is my lover___,
or maybe
it’s
the other way around,
I don’t know
anymore.


(Written on 1/2/15)

Monday, February 2, 2015

Ladies & families: FYI


Just a short note:
When I was in the ER on the 31st, I told them what happened to me originally (getting cut up & infected w/ e coli throughout the pelvis), they informed me that this is becoming more common. A decade ago it was unheard of & shocking. However, apparently now these cases are popping up more & more. While it's good that this issue is acknowledged, thus easier to trace & treat. At the same time though it's not an accident, instead it's cruel & caused by dirty instruments. So, research your OB-GYN very thoroughly before going in.
Another thing, just as further proof, in state penitentiaries in CA (at least) they are un-rightfully sterilizing African American women. This goes back as far as the American holocaust. My people, Native American Indians, the women would go to the doctor for so much as a cold & come out sterile & barren. This doesn't happen just in America, I've heard tale & read article about it going far back in Europe as well. PROTECT YOURSELF!!! 

Think about it, only backwards


Not holding my breath,
because I know much better
than to fool myself

For you my darling
life is not just mass & hull,
but for me it is___

Except for when the
bark is stripped away & the
roots do scream: murder.




(I keep posting bits from the film Gilda, & if you've never seen it___ you must! It's the film that officially set Rita Hayworth's career as a film goddess. Not to mention the director must have studied Hitchcock as if he were God. Amazing film, absolutely amazing.)

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Nothing but a sore ass


To boot___
due to the bruise
over
my Henry Miller
tattoo___,
I couldn’t play
my
guitar to save
my
sore ass.

(THIS is a complaint,
due to:
my guitar being my
closest companion___.)



It’s not a complaint if it’s a concern


My Henry Miller tattoo
is bruised___, & that
arm is struck w/ pain
down to
each fingertip.
My right ass cheek
is sore___, & that shot
didn’t even take.
My mind is in swirls
& I may be
weaving oddly
in waves of rushing
full-crash agony.
My main concern___
however
is that:
even though I faced
more than fears,
I am still sitting here
dealing w/ this
alone___.

(They pick me up, they drop me off___,
& none of them are there when
the real deal hits___.
& I’m not pointing a finger or placing
blame___, it’s just an expression of
how this fact doesn’t seem to change.)