Wednesday, December 27, 2017
Facing the eternal war trench
the noose
is already around
my neck,
& it's
a lit extension chord,
just have yet
to hit the
dangle
Communicating w/ silence
across the face
like the crossing
of one leg over
the other
the twist of a ring
around a finger
like the sudden dart
of an eye
w/
the arch
of
a brow
& the intonation
of a word
minus
the syllables
adhering
silence
w/
sound
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
Sunday, December 24, 2017
Black list
my freak illness
up on a platter,
carrying me
around to
various
hospitals
doctors
& clinics
so you could stay
fucked up
on pain pills,
after
being black listed
by every
doctor
in the city
Wednesday, December 20, 2017
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
Sunday, December 17, 2017
Of it
w/ more endearing
qualities
since it never stops
even once
the pressure lets off
from the pain
Saturday, December 16, 2017
If he had any
you may have succeeded
at attempting to convince
yourself, thru
a blind patch-working
of half-decent moments,
that things
may turn out okay
he gives
another valid reason
to kick
his teeth in
Thursday, December 14, 2017
Need
patient moments
surging echoes
up the spine
of reason
in a feverish climb
to get back
home
Wednesday, December 13, 2017
Monday, December 11, 2017
Wednesday, December 6, 2017
Tuesday, December 5, 2017
Friday, December 1, 2017
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Wednesday, November 29, 2017
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
Wouldn't know power, if it hit me in the face
drunk
on power
since
I'm already
too
drunk
on pain
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
Attention span
turns
my soul
temporarily
into a goldfish
repeatedly swimming
circles in its bowl
i.e. my skull
Crying ink
my face in my
forearms
to filter screams
of agony
led to
my crying tattoos
each arm
inked w/ poetry helps
subdue the need to break
tears
over being broken inside
all the time
Monday, November 20, 2017
Saturday, November 18, 2017
& feels
a ribbon a million
times
& bind it back
together
w/ transparent twine
& remember
how it looks when
the same
yet
different again
No longer blue
that's left
iris
in my head
is
that
occasionally appear
to swim in
a haze of dead
emerald
A not so new, but true
Remember me
like a dream you never
saw coming___,
play me like a flute
you always keep
in your jacket
pocket___,
twist me around
your finger
& tie me into a bow___,
don’t let me go
& don’t
forget your key to my
only locket___.
Saturday, November 4, 2017
Or, it wouldn't be the same
Just wash
the piss, shit
& blood
off your hands
since,
in essence, life will
continue.
Friday, November 3, 2017
Thursday, November 2, 2017
Tuesday, October 31, 2017
A poorly kept appearance
was not to keep
your closets clean
instead
it was to keep
your skeletons hid
from the light
A message to the caretaker
abandoned
in a soggy ball
on the kitchen island,
is a statement
of sorrow:
don't leave me, because
I refuse to properly
clean myself.
Monday, October 30, 2017
Saturday, October 28, 2017
For future
At this point,
the worry over aging
isn't as pertinent,
more so
worry rests in feeling
like a car
being towed to fix,
when really it's
being taken
to the junk yard
as
its good parts
are
only good for being
sold off
Elbow grease & mint chocolate chip ice cream
Don't care if
it's called
gelato or ice cream,
when its
dripping lid
gets left
face down on the counter,
until I decide
to scrub it up,
it's going to be called:
your fucking mess.
Friday, October 27, 2017
What happens when it works?
Perhaps
my greatest fear
is being afraid, since
when I get so much as
anxious, I attempt to empty
my mind of everything
Wednesday, October 25, 2017
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
Bitch 101
Kvetching is
a supplementation
for the lack of proper
volition,
in form of backwards
motivation
Monday, October 23, 2017
Saturday, October 21, 2017
Thursday, October 19, 2017
Consistency
Humanity already
did dumb shit
for love & worship,
now
it's
dumb shit
for
money
in the name
of love & worship,
that's
modernity
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
Saturday, October 14, 2017
Friday, October 13, 2017
From '85
Everything else
celebrates
my birthday
on
the 31st of May,
instead
of the 29th,
as
my birth certificate
states
as
the appropriate date.
Thursday, October 12, 2017
A logical philosophy
If
you
don't like
to cook & clean,
avoid
the same kitchen
as me;
if
you
can't cook
& only
pretend to clean,
stay
the fuck out
of
the same kitchen
as me
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Monday, October 9, 2017
No comment
Between voice mail
&
the comment button
on social media,
morons have
only
succeeded in
mediocre attempts
at
harassment
trolling
my streets
just means
you're
running out
of game
better luck next time
Jack ass
Thursday, September 28, 2017
Give or take
Always on the edge
of a bad crowd
&
a good one
too
since from that stance
both appear
roughly the same
Wednesday, September 27, 2017
A luxury bed of nails
Only
difference
between
childhood
&
adulthood
is
you're bred
in
a briar patch
&
then
upgraded
to
a bed of nails
Saturday, September 23, 2017
Asphalt for the soul
A
detour
on way back
to peace of mind
war would be extra roadwork
this is just stopping to fill
a pothole
Forsooth
One of the few variables
strong enough to distract
the soul from the ache
of existence
is chaos
& there's a lot of love
in chaos
necessary for contrast
we wouldn't know we
exist
if it weren't for
the burn
of it.
Chaos, the only remedy
For
the burn
of existence
no
tonic can be
obtained
nor administered
not even the
grave
can
diffuse such
an agony
Wednesday, September 20, 2017
Monday, September 18, 2017
Seen anomaly
Just because
there's no written
definition for something,
doesn't mean
you don't know
its meaning
For yourself
Not sure
the focus was
so much on
trying to be more
yourself for others, but
as long as you're not
trying to be
someone else, then
you're probably
well on track
Sunday, September 17, 2017
Bothering to look
But maybe it's that I
don't want to know what bullshit
is lurking around the corner,
when unfortunately___
I've got more than
just a suspicion, after all
this time
Saturday, September 16, 2017
By impatient hands
Inside my mind
feels like the sound
of an already disorganized
silverware drawer being
rummaged thru
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
Human boogie
On occasion,
I wonder if
being
the worst person
I can imagine
would make them less
fond of me,
but then I look around
& remember
how humanity grew
this way.
& again, it was written
God spoke
to humanity
& simply said:
Yeah___
I've got
your 6 & 12, but
I've also got
the bullet
belonging between
your eyes, &
I'm probably the only
mother fucker
capable of
putting it
there
Tuesday, September 12, 2017
Monday, September 11, 2017
Friday, September 8, 2017
Wednesday, September 6, 2017
Monday, September 4, 2017
What future be
In the garden
of your dreams
not all is green
instead
there is every
color
possibly seen.
Sunday, September 3, 2017
Saturday, September 2, 2017
Friday, September 1, 2017
Escaping Your reality
As always
the grass
really
isn't greener
on the other side
&
that desire
is
more about
your own greed.
Etcetera
Give me contrast
or
give me pure chaos
give me chaos
or
give me pure contrast
either way
a new definition
will
take place
Hydrocarbon tear gas
Obtaining
a can
of
mace
just means
I have
something to
empty
in their face
before busting
their teeth
out
&
choking them
w/ it.
No cowardly threats
No business cards
no instant msgs
no listed phone #
&
specifically
no voice mail
&
ALWAYS
caller ID
&
I wish
it were
MY
paranoia.
Thursday, August 31, 2017
Wednesday, August 30, 2017
Autopsy pillow
Crawling back
to bed
at end of a day,
a ritual of sorting
decomposition
takes place
where
resting my neck
& skull
on
a metal block
is the only
comfort
I
know
Tuesday, August 29, 2017
Sunday, August 27, 2017
Eek & ew
I understand it's sad
that I know
nothing changed
&
the expected order
remained same, when
I walk back inside for
the first time in less than
a week
&
the stench nearly makes
me puke
Friday, August 25, 2017
Let me tell ya somethin' 'bout the gospel
It's only
a reaction
to a tepid
boil
since
we're all
riddled
w/
guilt
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Wednesday, August 23, 2017
Near denial proof
She was impossible
to speak to
"that's prostitution
& you're fully
the fuck
aware of the facts."
& reason
was the last obstacle
to be employed
"it's only prostitution
if it doesn't work."
in short:
a bunch of coy
bullshit
& trouble
I wouldn't be able
to get her out of in
the end.
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
Sunday, August 20, 2017
Saturday, August 19, 2017
Sunday, August 13, 2017
Momma Bear said:
NO,
don't bring that trash
up to my door,
'less you want the ground
to shake
& swallow you whole.
Saturday, August 12, 2017
there's Your diplomacy
I didn't
make the truth
&
I didn't
make it hurt
anymore
than
it
already did
I just
displayed
it
w/in
the scenery
it
already
fit.
Friday, August 11, 2017
Wednesday, August 9, 2017
What them soldiers e't
batch
of buzzards
got bit by shrapnel
while circling the sky,
&
got cooked into a pie.
Tuesday, August 8, 2017
Sunday, July 30, 2017
Thursday, July 27, 2017
Even in the right socket
Only when
shit 's snake bit
does
another 40 watt bulb
blow,
after 2 months
of pseudo
use.
Wednesday, July 26, 2017
Tiny tick attack
Brought a batch
of blood sucking parasites
home w/ me, after
body hunting for my daddy, &
had to use lice shampoo
to shell shock the lot
off my body
even tho
lice is unknown to me
parasites
are all the same.
Sunday, July 23, 2017
A polite gesture
check your map & anger
at the door,
there is even a conveniently
allotted space
off
to the side
for that very purpose,
in order to show respect
for what you do not
yet
understand.
A well designed impact
Beyond the manifold
of poetry in posture, I know
my bite is worse than written word
I tear the flesh from the sternum,
burst thru the ribs & rip out
the heart
in order to force feed it back into you
whether or not you survive
but there is a silver lining for those
w/ the guts to stand up
& speak, since verbal communication
is where real strength
begins
Saturday, July 22, 2017
Friday, July 21, 2017
Is it really so shocking?
The canary died
in a coal mine fatality
(the fate of such a bird),
& the robber left
no sign nor evidence behind
(as is not the case of Santa Claus).
Remember to let go
Latched on
to short
purse strings, &
dangling in
a painful
daydream, in which
everything is convoluted
___
&
___
that is apt to be truth.
Thursday, July 20, 2017
The sparkplug method
You don't
even need
a slingshot
glass shatters
on impact
&
we liked it___
&
we said___
it
was
good
It 'll have to shoot me, first
Bursting
into song, as
the pain rolls on,
cuz I intend to keep
my cowboy boots on.
Wednesday, July 19, 2017
Orphan chewing gum
You say you don't
use me, since you don't
need me & so there's none
of me to share,
BUT
somehow
I still get stuck
to the top
of the washing machine.
Tuesday, July 18, 2017
Monday, July 17, 2017
Thursday, July 13, 2017
Changing decoration
I've
taken to
storing what
money
I earn
in my old morphine bottles
since
the irony
seems
to
suit
Tuesday, July 11, 2017
Truth & bile
Lately
I've just felt
like yelling from
the base of my gut,
just because
I can
besides
if I sing in between,
maybe they will
assume
I am crazy
The Alabama alarm clock
Engulfed in
a round of prattle after
work in Memphis all weekend
we hadn't realized
our approach of the state line,
until my sudden jump
of adrenaline & breathing,
egging on the inquiry:
'is this Iuke
or is this Cherokee, cuz
these still be Mississippi roads'
then we saw those Alabama
hills & trees, w/
a dip
in the energy of
prattle
&
otherwise
Monday, July 10, 2017
The bottom line
So
you thought
the truth would hurt,
then one day
it knocked right on your door
& said: you're going to hell,
& hand-in-hand
I'm gonna
take you there.
When the job is done
Helping another
along
the flight path
to a better living,
does not mean
I ever
want them
to fly back to me
just
to say
how lost they
were.
Not interested in looking in from the outside
Ya get sick
of cleaning up
civilian shit,
as it is a lie to call
civilized.
Sunday, July 9, 2017
Thursday, June 29, 2017
An extra backbone
an anchor
is
to embrace the
feeling
of being a constant
burden, while also
playing a necessity
for
survival.
Monday, June 26, 2017
Tiny spaces
the foley
sound shifts thru
peace
& works as an adhesive,
to hold the
right pieces
together.
Saturday, June 24, 2017
Thursday, June 22, 2017
Tuesday, June 20, 2017
Monday, June 19, 2017
Saturday, June 17, 2017
Thursday, June 15, 2017
Friday, June 9, 2017
Black strap
bound by
flesh
straight jackets,
thus
our minds turn
w/ wander
thru such an
ethereal & brasch
morass
Thursday, June 8, 2017
& her
to pet my cat
resting in a basket
atop the dryer, &
feeling familiar fur
w/ a lifeless body
underneath___
was closure enough
for me.
Monday, May 29, 2017
Just for good measure
in my face,
as if
swaying
from a meat hook
hung from a wishbone
composed of light particles,
once shone
from the bowels of a star,
that was caught
sight of one
misty, rain dabbled night,
in between a couple
clouds,
which had
spit in each eye.
Steady breeze around an unsteady leaf
of measured slats,
holding up everything
except
the dirt & the trees;
sitting still thru
the decomposition of dream,
hope & wonder___
even
the associated horror for contrast
got smashed;
sleeping peacefully w/
one eye always open on the off chance
there may be a reason
for the intrigue
of sight,
while supposedly in dream.
Up in smoke
by the beat of a heart,
w/ rice paper walls protecting
the existence of vital
instruments,
saved
for later, when the world
backfires & destroys those hours
&
that heart.
Sunday, May 28, 2017
Sanguine sky
been
like this, give
or take
parts of the foundation
seem whole
& others aren’t so
simple to put a solid step on
w/out fearing falling thru
an endless sky
That wince & grin
when light turned into only a prism
w/ a dingy tinge turning around
inside___
& it laughed back
at us___
Saturday, May 27, 2017
Just at the bone
cut out my soul, you know
to set it free
at times I think I might just succeed
past
tendon once paired w/ muscle
& practically drowning
in the blood of
what once seemed
so substantial,
it may have been mistook
for indestructible
&
what wild glee
gurgles amid
atoms
when
I can’t
cut
past
the bone.
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Or not
this purple petal
will float on its breeze, its
make can turn
it while
easier, whether to its end___
Tuesday, May 23, 2017
Wire walking Blindfolded
w/ death & no safety net
surrounding
in
a drop
to not a breath left,
yet
just as good of a view to
behold.
Wednesday, May 17, 2017
A creator in circles
he were
an insect, it
would only display
a single, immaculate
wing
down the center
w/
no damage
to imply that
another ever existed.
Saturday, May 13, 2017
What may feel like a stumble
how long I’ve tried
to appropriately analogize
mind over matter,
for better grasp in the future,
but all I can manage
to say is Mai over Mae.
Monday, May 8, 2017
Consistency
disappointment, but more so
just empty enough
to echo back
my own dissatisfaction.
Thru each season
the subtropics is
akin
to having termites
in your bones
thru summer, &
in winter
the wind then
blows brittle whistles
thru what holes
are
left behind.
Friday, May 5, 2017
Another age of this
& It’s not like I’m going anywhere
Hanging around a sloppy foundation
w/ a more than rattled structure,
not even a good set of bones
Walking barefoot on broken teeth, it was always
an inevitability & now
to take to new stakes for a better show, but what
trouble does not rest so easy in approach
Still a split lip
I just know there’s plenty of certainty
& indifference to uncertainty.
Tuesday, May 2, 2017
Friday, April 28, 2017
Tuesday, April 25, 2017
Saturday, April 22, 2017
Focus for the Storm
makes me wish I could cry,
while provision & ceremony
insist; at least know
my sweet
that you were not eaten
out of vanity,
instead
for the rhythm
of remaining steady.
The rare quality of meat, for me
consuming
a bloody steak
compensate,
while
waiting
patiently
on
retribution?
An arduous trek
are the seemingly
precariously structured
spiral staircase
of existence
Tuesday, April 18, 2017
One way or the other
whether
one or the other
is considered
false,
both
still play
their part in
all & everything.
Paying me pre D day
I’m the one
they can take their
Real troubles to,
w/ a known
understanding that
I’m not the judge,
just
the fixer
Mean but true
which causes others
to think I need
to be taken
care of, is hilarious
&
mildly offensive
since I’ve waged
Death’s sickle alone, yet
on that same note, several
rejected my existence
&
some abused my
circumstance
for
their
sick needs
pretty certain I don’t need
you
or
anyone else
convincing themselves I need
them
for anything
Reborn amid a hasty reach for the morgue drawer
a friend hesitantly
reads their suicide note aloud,
after surviving
the intended death reach
locked in an asylum
the last
question to ask
is:
how do you feel now
Sunday, April 16, 2017
Friday, April 14, 2017
When god spoke
Egypt
by the chariot
spokes
& yet
the wheels
continue
rolling
whether
on
the ground
or
thru the skies
Thursday, April 13, 2017
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
Drowning in Jordan
& absurdity to the furthest possible extreme,
not like those 1960s family tv shows
everyone still loves so much.
Monday, April 10, 2017
Saturday, April 8, 2017
One more for the road
molestation
& rape___
that
was
this life time.
Next
go around___
you get to
go
fuck yourself.