Punching the mind keys

Always more to consider

Calculating
in
all possibilities
w/ every
reason
you can logically
imagine, &
when the results
hit one
out of all
those
possibilities you
had previously
thought out

it
still___
doesn’t make you
Right___,
because more
always
comes to follow___.

*

Simplify

The rapidity
of repetition inside
is unstoppable

6/20/15

What's wrong may be right

Some things___ you just can’t fix
& it’s naïve to think change has really occurred
just because a variable or two has shifted,
you just end up wrong again w/ that
sick feeling eating at the guts___,
there are some wounds___ you just can’t stitch up
& it’s wondered if
they will bleed
for the remainder of this life___
even w/ acceptance,
compassion & understanding applied
through more than simple instinct.
(You may just think: it doesn’t
hurt to try).

6/21/15

No more tears over onions

Nesting in the atom
& peeling back cognitive layers,
tingling w/in the crackle of synapses
while calmly wondering when
the walls will collapse___
becoming only
effluvia.

Go deeper than the worms

Dig to the core,
since this
life
is no shallow grave.

Just remember

Palmistry
states that___
the middle finger
represents
justice.

Talking notes (video)

This bit came from a series of notes I took yesterday___ or the day before. Keep getting side swiped by___ well, what I attempt to describe in this video. I've only experienced this sort of breaking point three times now & this post is basically a result of my attempt at analysis. As it happens, nothing applies except the internal monologue, which is used to navigate such a situation. There's no choice but to navigate/calculate/rationalize___ because literally that's all that's left once past the breaking point. It still amazes me___ that it's possible at all for the body to reach such a sensation___ where it is as if there is nothing else. You are your own atom in the friction of existence as a whole, & if the center is not maintained properly___ you explode. It's beautiful, but___ in the thick of it___ a horror w/out true definition. (Note: there is nothing taken/consumed or the like to assist, because it's automatically understood that nothing can touch it/stop it/ease it___ it just is. & to honest, I don't mind that at all.)

Popped photo fuse

Attempting
to unknot some wires
at least,
to strengthen photogenic memory___
&
maybe I popped a line
cuz
today I can’t see
shit___

when giving it a shot
all I get
is a blur w/ just one or two
still images ___
&
that includes short term memory___

I did
however
maintain a better grasp on
numbers___,
so
it’s not all bad___

Keep on

Trying to answer
questions calling when
I don’t understand
fully___
what goes on.

Inventory of my mind’s closet space

Examining the interstices
of internal processes,
combing through the logic
of why___.

Trying to trust what might be empty space

Due to how
my adaptation
& relearning after
brain damage
went___

(complete lacking
of past memory
& not being
able to hold on
to new memory
well___,
until
mid to late
adolescence___)

I can’t fully trust
the visual
recollection of
barely
anything
before
age seventeen___

*

My mind doesn’t bother
w/ retrieving certain
types of memory,
even in the current,
& I get annoyed when
forced
to reminisce alone, since
I need a person that
was present
& remembers properly
- - - to fill in
the blank spaces - - -
for me___