Irrational sketching

Sitting/sketching,
I am drafting ideas for
a children's book, out pops
my deepest fear___
& there's no one to talk to.

So, I will submit it to the void.

Currently___
my deepest fear is not of dying,
but instead, it's
dropping dead of a brain aneurysm
before I am able to pull my life
out of the hole it's been in
for over 8 years.

'There's nothing to fear but fear itself' (as it is said)

I know it's irrational
& have even
traced this particular fear to
its root___,
yes, I know where it began___.

That doesn't really
change
anything though___, since
no matter how
I reason & rationalize,
the fear returns, because___
I let it.