Talking notes (video)

This bit came from a series of notes I took yesterday___ or the day before. Keep getting side swiped by___ well, what I attempt to describe in this video. I've only experienced this sort of breaking point three times now & this post is basically a result of my attempt at analysis. As it happens, nothing applies except the internal monologue, which is used to navigate such a situation. There's no choice but to navigate/calculate/rationalize___ because literally that's all that's left once past the breaking point. It still amazes me___ that it's possible at all for the body to reach such a sensation___ where it is as if there is nothing else. You are your own atom in the friction of existence as a whole, & if the center is not maintained properly___ you explode. It's beautiful, but___ in the thick of it___ a horror w/out true definition. (Note: there is nothing taken/consumed or the like to assist, because it's automatically understood that nothing can touch it/stop it/ease it___ it just is. & to honest, I don't mind that at all.)