Just a note

Surface level is fine
for now, just a dip of the
toe into the bile___
more could be said, but
I find myself holding back
because internally I am
processing tasks
of my own, &
I’ve hit a point of numb
from transmogrification,
rapid change___

At present I am navigating a transition
that changes my lifestyle
dramatically for health reasons___
& thus far there has been:
losing control & saying no to
the dynamic of treating my body w/
pharmaceutical debt
illness & death of my grandfather
mourning
cleansing further
thought___

& I’m still working & content w/
how things are
for the moment___,
excuse me.

Photo by Claire Abernathy, me spinning w/ her umbrella in a foot of snow just for fun___
taken the first night I really said fuck it since mourning had hit
we did a shoot the next day in a grave yard, & that's when I knew I had more than
triggered the smile___
once able to let go & dance I felt better.