Almost, but not quite

Thirty
I’m almost thirty
& should be
self sufficient w/
a career___

these things
I used to have
once when
I was
younger___,
but a corrupt
‘doctor’
assisted my
external
life
being stripped
away

ever since
I’ve been trying
to get it back,
but, no matter
what I do
no matter
what attempts

I commit to___

all I meet are
dead ends

still though___
I prepare
for the time
arriving when
something
will give, & I
will find a way
to get it___
to get it right
again___